I feel your sadness. I had my husband of 11 years from the home by the a week ago. I him so much but he had turned into a hot sexy horny in Canyon creek Montana monster over the years, unable to adjust to 4 daughters that he said he never wanted, even though they were planned, just a total selfish scary rage addict and our older girls had wanted him gone for awhile, but the just adored him. In 13 years, we had never been apart for even one night until now and I AM SAD I AM SO LONELY so much worse than when my mom died when I was. My dream of the intact home for my, till death do us part. I was a good wife but he just deteriorated and wouldn't accept help. Told me "You ruined my life with these motherfuckers!" as I lay nursing the one we named after his mom. And in public, tall dark handsome kind and charming but at home, oh God, nobody knew. I you can heal. I took those vows seriously, too.